why is it so hard to do it?!
I've been hurt by you so many times and I do not want to be hurt again...
you're always like this?
but I've in no power to control you...

28 days to the wedding!
hahaha~!
it seems lame...
my mum says that we're maybe going back on the 25th september...
friday!
yes!!!
but thinking of it,
I feel so nervous...
I'm scared that I'll make a fool of myself.
that's what I always do on important occassions..
LOL

should I believe in you again?
I don't want to get hurt again...
I don't want to be trick by you
I want to trust you completely, but I can't.
your actions make me so insecure..

should I go back to my primary school?
I'm thinking of not going back..
what's the use of going back?
I don't think the teachers even recognise me or even know me...
haiz~~~
but even if I were to go, I would only meet my chinese teacher whom I always cause trouble for during my primary school years... hahaha~~~! :)

so many things happened this few days!!!
:)
there's currently 30 days to the wedding...
whoo~~! :)

running with cassandra tomorrow... yeah!
hahahaha~~! :D :D :D

got results...
my ENGLISH!!!!!
argh :/

others I think got improve but science I think I deproved abit...
haiz~~
anws, there's still SA2 so...
just pull up my socks! YES! :)

back to posting~! :)
CT2 is over,
but SA2 is coming.
I've got to work extra hard to get into the class of my choice. :)

there's 36 days left to the wedding!
whoo~~! :D
yippee!
and ya, congrats to my cousin who've got mature. hehe~! LOL! =.='
but yes, I congratulate her. :)
but please, don't be sad anymore...
it's scary to read your blog..
post more happier things in order for you to forget those unhappy memories. :)
cheers! :D :D :D

I'll be getting my papers next monday...
this time, I MAY pass all papers, though the percentage of passing is higher but I wouldn't take any risks. :)
but, the most important one is still my EOY!
that exam determines the class that I'll go to... so JIAYOUS! :D

was actually planning to run with cassandra but,
it rained. :(
stay healthy too, cassandra!
:)

what's wrong with the blogger nowadays? it seems weird..

there's still currently,
hmmmm....
19 days to september holidays and,
41 days left for me to go to malaysia to attend the wedding!
yesh!!!!
but it still seems like a long time..
how I wish it's tomorrow..
but when ever I think that, if it's tomorrow, then it'll pass very fast and I don't want that to happen too.
haiz~~~

today, went for guzheng lesson..
practice the songs that my group was supposed to perform...
it's been a long time ever since my group again went for guzheng lesson coz' the teacher doesn't want to teach anymore because she's too busy...
I think she found a new teacher but for the teacher to formally teach us, she has to get her membership card first so I think the teacher's waiting for the card....

in the afternoon, went for swimming...
and yes, again, it's been a long time ever since I swim....
haha~~! it seems like almost everything I've not been doing for a long time.. :)
it really feels great after swimming... :D
whoo hoo~! :)

HEYs! I'm back to blogging after disappearing for a looooong time!
hahahs~! :D

I shall be posting everytime I online for this period of time.
I thought I should post for these few weeks or few months, maybe.
well, not sure.

okays, today.. erm...
aiya~ it's just like normal school days,
-wake up early in the morning
-go to school at about 6.30am
-reached school at 7.15am
-started normal lessons at 8am, with Mrs Tang talking crap..

Oh ya!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASSANDRA! :) :)
may your dreams come true. :D

how can I forget to buy a pressie for you?
haiz~~~ you're my best friend you know....
remember to buy me present for my birthday okays? HAHA~!
I'm just joking!

and ya, I'm really curious about this?
how many people in this world would get FUNGI INFECTION?!
well, I seldom see any.... so I was wondering if I'm the weird one.
LOL~
yeah, I've got fungi infection and I'm really desperate to find something to cure it at once!
I went to see the western doctors and they gave me cream to apply.... and yes, it didn't help.
I went to the chinese doctors and they gave me a liquid to apply...
well, it did improve abit by "shedding" the dead skin but it's still very itchy!
it has to recover almost 80% so that it wouldn't spread to the other parts of my body.
ARGH!

but, it seems that, the more I care about the infection,
the more it'll spread.
but, I really can't just leave it aside....
now, my mum has asked for a stronger medicine to apply...
I really hope it'll get well....
none of my friends nor my family has fungi infection but why do I have it?
why of so many people, me?
LOL~
I sound like as if I've contracted a disease. HA~!

but really, when I look at other people's skin compared to mine,
I really feel like having skin transplant..
hahah!
now my only wish is that, it doesn't worsen and it doesn't spread to other parts of my arm and legs.
Please..... please..... please.....

46 more days to the wedding.
it seems like a long time away....
anyway, common test is coming up already.
I got to do well in this test.... or maybe better then the previous test so that I can pull up my marks.
:)

there's nothing today
but there's remedial today...
what a tiring day. Phew~!

Looking at you,
reminds me of the memories before then.
I didn't know that they were so precious
until I lost you.
did I really like you or is it the attachment between you and me?

I really don't know.
but now, all I know is that,
you can't be trusted and neither do I want to trust you again.
all you know, was to critisise me
and leave me alone.
I..... really....
give up.

hahah~~! I know it sounds emo
but it doesn't mean anything.

it just came up to my mind
so I decided to write it here.
well, that's all for today.
bye :D

9th August 2009

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! or maybe I could say HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
hahaha~~!
I wish S'pore to be a nation strong and free from wars and people living together in harmony. :)

well, I know that I hadn't post for a very very very very very very long time.
and now, I shall post.

my cousin's gonna be married soon~~~!
I'm so going to miss her.... :(
I was curious of why she would get married so fast but now, I know
haiz~
I really didn't expect her to be like that, but yes,
she just did it.
I hope she and her husband can be happy instead of feeling that they,
were forced to get married.

and ya, because of their marriage
my parents had to prepare things, or gifts you may say..
for them.
my other cousins and my siblings also had to shop for clothes to wear during their wedding ceremony...
I went all over the place just in search for that one clothes and yes,
after a long time,
I then found one.
HAHAHA!

my cousin and sibling also bought their choosen one
well, we really spent lots of money just preparing for their marriage
but I also earned a new clothes.
whoo~ :D

10th August 2009

I have this urge to fly to malaysia right now!
AH~~~~!
there's still 45 days before their wedding....
I can't wait sia..
haiz~~~
but I guess time pass very quickly yeah???
It'll soon be over.
thinking of my cousin getting married, I always have this weird feeling in my heart.
it seems that we, as cousins, are going to cut off ties as soon as we get married..
maybe I'm thinking too much?
I hope not.