yeah, give it all up.... don't keep your hopes high anymore, just, let it go ....

Dad drove me to school today.... thank you so muchhhhh :)
I still remember last time.
what I wuld do to my father and I really really regret it.

I really hurt his heart
I didn't do my duty as his daughter.
I really gulity of that... and I promised to myself that....
no matter what happens, I will not vent my anger on him.

frm what I know, my dad temper has also not been good...
as a result, I hate his character and personality.
I wuld, always, scold him over the smallest reasons and matters.
There's once, when he wanted to slap me in the face, I said harshly to him:
" don't you dare to slap me! if I were to bleed, you'll go into jail~"
and that's when, I could see his eyes, close to tears and asking me, "do you know who I am to you?" all I did, was to stare back at him....

but after that scolding, I really went to do some reflection on myself....
what right do I have to scold him?
He's my father and I just spoke so rudely to him.... will he feel hurt?
will he not talk to me agn?
I really thought alot....
I'm scared.... but I don't know why....

since then on, I didn't dare to utter a word in front of him and I didn't dare to scold him....
all I didn't was to just gobble down all my anger cause I think I really owe him too too too too much.... :(

okays... back to topic (:

copied maths homework....
and talk talk talk....
but I realised something abt me....
I always have nth talk abt.... and usually during the first day of the week.
that's why people may think I'm quiet but I'm actually sorta "talkative" hahahs :D
maybe it's because of the different CCA I have with other people and what they normally like to talk abt aren't my interest.... but, relax
I'll start improving on that....

after school, went to the library.
Oh yah, I just forgotten that I've just borrow a novel, I guess
well, frm what it says, it is interesting, but I've yet to read it~~~

then went to caltex and when cassandra came, went home together :)

sleeping early today....
so that I can wake up tomorrow....
*yawns*
byes :D